I realize that I have a broad path ahead of me. I think about the future and what I see is a gilded and vainglorious end in which I could be a powerful politician, and on the opposite end of the spectrum, I find the more isolated and lonesome path of introspective scholar. I'm not the smartest man, but I know that all information is attainable as well comprehensible. Not at once of course, but what ever I choose to follow. I've noticed how both of these paths had something to do with power, and that the path I've actually chosen for myself, is one in which I've submitted any power that I never had. The path I chose, without realizing it, fits the ideals on how I live my life.
I'm young, only twenty, yet I feel like I've still missed out on far too much. I also feel as if I'm on the precipice of a deep apathy that I struggle with every day. I seek new feelings. New experiences don't always provide new feelings, but they do provide a setting in which I can appreciate the old ones. I know what I enjoy. For what seemed like a decade I hadn't the clue. I fucking despise people, yet they are the only thing that can really make me happy. God damn social mammals disgust me, the hypocrisy, the deceit, the anger, the fucking selfishness of it all. Society is a fucking conundrum.